Hello world! I'm back writing to you about something that I've been stewing over for the past couple of months. Sometimes, I've found that I have issues with worshiping God because I let everything else get in the way - I'm worried about my things that I don't have, my to do list, and I've even felt wanting to get away from God because of my own sin, and feeling unworthy. I decided to share this post in case it helps anyone else. I had some time to stew over this at a retreat about a month ago, and now I think my thoughts are gathered enough to write!
So, the title for my post - Who is He TO YOU. I know that we've all heard that He is the King of Kings, Lord of Lords, and many other common phrases - but who is He to you? In Matthew 16, Jesus asked the disciples to tell Him who He was.
"13 When Jesus came to the region of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, “Who do people say the Son of Man is?” 14 They replied, “Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets.” 15 “But what about you?” he asked. “Who do you say I am?” 16 Simon Peter answered, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.” 17 Jesus replied, “Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah, for this was not revealed to you by flesh and blood, but by my Father in heaven."
I'll repeat it, Jesus asked the disciples to tell Him who He was - but notice that he also asked the disciples who He was to them - aside from what others said about Jesus. I personally believe that the answer to this question fuels our worship. Who is Jesus to you? Now, there's nothing wrong with using a common phrase like King of Kings, Lord of Lords etc to describe this, but you need to understand why He is this to you, and that fuels your whole worship.
- I personally can say that Jesus is the King of Kings because I remember being a sophomore in college and having one of the heads of my department tell me to my face that I didn't have what it took to get an internship, so I should focus on research and try later - then getting an awesome internship a few weeks later, and eventually getting a great job in the middle of the recession way ahead of many of my peers. It didn't matter what man said, God had the final say.
- I can say that He is merciful because I remember living in darkness and disregarding Him and He gave me another chance - and not only that, He gives me new mercy everyday regardless of my imperfections.
- I can tell you that He is a way maker because there have been many days that I've woken up, and the 1st thought in my mind was "Lord, how am I going to get through everything?" and when I go to bed at night, I can say "Lord, thanks for making it all happen."
I could keep going, but the point is that I can point to specific ways that God has shown himself to me, and I'll tell you that whenever I take the time to meditate on this before praying, I have a great worship experience. It's hard to do anything but tell Him how much you appreciate everything He's done when you take the time to focus on Him. We have to make it about Him - not us. It's not about our imperfections, we have to focus on His greatness in your life and how He's pulled you through in the past, and it'll definitely encourage you looking forward. I'd been dealing with doubt and fear for a while and this revelation really helped me, so I decided to share.
Last, I wanted to share the exercise that I led at the retreat that I mentioned above, which started this whole reflection train. Below is a picture of my "lifeline" - showing highs and lows in my life. For each part, I wrote who God showed up in that period of my life.
Both the highs and lows show God's love for me - protecting me, educating me, being patient with me, blessing me, healing me - and ultimately after looking over that, I had to label God as the author of my future. Looking back and appreciating everything has helped me put aside doubt, and really trust God to have my back in the future - regardless of my shortcomings, imperfections and without my having to dictate each step. Even writing this blog has been another awesome reminder of His goodness, and why I worship Him. Its all about Who He is To Me - not who I am. I hope this blesses you, and that you are able to take the time to reflect on who He is to you and strengthen your own relationship with Him!
Stay blessed, and feel free to share comments, revelations or anything else that's on your heart!